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today i got a tonne of old comments that apparently got lost in the email. very strange.sorry i'm not all that active. i just don't feel it right now. i still read everything, but i'm going through a rather asocial period right now and i don't really talk to anyone, or really have anything to say, unless i'm under the influence, and then i babble about everything, but that's to be expected i supposei feel sick, i suppose i should sleep, although this may be harder than i'd earlier thought

i think melissa gave me the sickies

i feel awful :(why does jesus hate me?

you know you're old when you get nostalgic

so today, instead of sleeping, i went through some of the stuff in my room that i haven't seen in forever. now, i'm at my mom's place, and most of this stuff i haven't touched since i packed it up at the end of high school.weeeeeeell, i found a bunch of notes that a couple of girls i'm not longer friend with wrote to me when we were best friends, back in the day. they were interesting, and they made me realise what a ridiculous twit i was (am). i also found all the notes that my first majorly serious boyfriend wrote to me, both while we were dating, and after we broke up. he was the biggest sweetheart ever, and i broke his heart :(over the years we haven't really kept in touch. every now and then i've seen him on msn or whatever, but the conversations are usually brief, and we're no where close to being friends, and it sucks. i did want to stay friends with him after we broke up, but it was too hard for both of us to do it RIGHT after we broke up, and then i graduated and went to trent, and after kirk broke up with me in first year, i wasn't really home that much. it sucks that we're not still friends. he was so amazing to me and we both swore up and down we'd always be friends, but it just didn't work out.so yeah, i'm feeling very emo at the moment. i blame lack of sleep and my vagina. in other news, i have a doctor's appointment in like 3 hours. i'm guessing not sleeping until AFTER the appointment would be the best plan of action at this point.of late, the internet has been kind of not my friend. i suppose it's the high level of apathy i'm feeling toward most things in general, so while i've been reading journals, i haven't really been commenting because i can't think of anything to say, and that applies doubly for writing here. so, enjoy the lull while it lasts, because god knows at some point i'm going to clog your friend's pages full of shit and you'll rue the day you ever decided to add me to your friend's list!1unrelated: i'm wearing the housecoat that my mom wore when i was a baby. it's pretty silly looking.i have pink finger nails and huge blisters on my heels

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i've spent all morning downloading french musici'm awesome!

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holy crap, i'm an aunt

my step sister had her babies (she had TWINS) the other day. jeeeeesus christ. this is crazy. she talked to me today and told me she's moving to london, so i think i'm going to take a trip home soon to see her, although i'll probably wait until the babies are out of the hospital. i was sort of worried when she sent me a message the other day because i know that they were early (2 months early), but she said that they're doing fine and they're transferring them to london tomorrow, so they must be stable.holy crapthat's all i can say.i've got two nephews, domnic (who i have decided i will call dom)and dakoda.jesus shit

rant

ok, i really hate it when people get offended about stupid bullshit. take for instance, being called a slut when you're someone who is actually practising a lifestyle that some, if not most, people would consider slutty. i mean really, let's think about this. by challenging a social taboo, you are automatically putting yourself outside the norm, and like it or not, some people are going to find this innappropriate. but here's the thing that really gets me, taking the word slut as a negative, despite the fact that you apparently have no problem acting like one. HELLO THIS DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE AND IT MAKES YOU LOOK LIKE A FUCKING MORON. if you have a lifestyle where you sleep with lots of people, or hell even someone you're not committed to, you are going to fit some people's, if not most people's definition of the word slut and sure they will probably throw it at you in a negative way, but being offended by it is ACCEPTING that negative meaning to the word, and basically says to that person, "yes i am a slut and i'm ashamed of it" which is RETARDED.and how about people who complain about being called a slut while continuing the actions which get them that response. if it REALLY bothers you so much, stop acting like that. if it doesn't, then get the fuck over it and stop complaining about it.i mean really, the way i dress gets me comments all the time. it'd be annoying as hell if every time someone called me a freak or one of the other billions of negative things i've been called, i freaked out and got all pissy and upset, just because someone made a negative comment about you. like really, who gives a shit? if some small-minded fuck needs to get their kicks from taking a stab at me, why in the HELL would i a) give them that statisfaction or b) take that to heart in the first place.so anyway, if you're going to be a slut, all the more power to you, just fucking own that shit and don't cry about it when someone inevitably calls you out on your actions, you fucking babies.yeah, i'm a bitch, but people are fucking annoying as shitedit - i also LOATHE it when people leave the empty juice jug in the fridge *coughphilcough* bastards

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http://www.soufoaklin.com/tattooartist.htmlthat's just too funny

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you are violet#EE82EEYour dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be.Your saturation level is lower than average - You don't stress out over things and don't understand people who do. Finishing projects may sometimes be a challenge, but you schedule time as you see fit and the important things all happen in the end, even if not everyone sees your grand master plan.Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.the spacefem.com html color quizexcept for the fact that i stress about everythingmy feet are cold and melissa just told me a wonderfully ridiculous storyi'm going to read some kathy acker and then stress about my experimental fic essay that's due in just over a monthhopefully wayne will take me to mc donalds soon or subway, i like subway and phil will do my laundry when he does his