Tuesday, June 26, 2007
you know you're old when you get nostalgic
so today, instead of sleeping, i went through some of the stuff in my room that i haven't seen in forever. now, i'm at my mom's place, and most of this stuff i haven't touched since i packed it up at the end of high school.weeeeeeell, i found a bunch of notes that a couple of girls i'm not longer friend with wrote to me when we were best friends, back in the day. they were interesting, and they made me realise what a ridiculous twit i was (am). i also found all the notes that my first majorly serious boyfriend wrote to me, both while we were dating, and after we broke up. he was the biggest sweetheart ever, and i broke his heart :(over the years we haven't really kept in touch. every now and then i've seen him on msn or whatever, but the conversations are usually brief, and we're no where close to being friends, and it sucks. i did want to stay friends with him after we broke up, but it was too hard for both of us to do it RIGHT after we broke up, and then i graduated and went to trent, and after kirk broke up with me in first year, i wasn't really home that much. it sucks that we're not still friends. he was so amazing to me and we both swore up and down we'd always be friends, but it just didn't work out.so yeah, i'm feeling very emo at the moment. i blame lack of sleep and my vagina. in other news, i have a doctor's appointment in like 3 hours. i'm guessing not sleeping until AFTER the appointment would be the best plan of action at this point.of late, the internet has been kind of not my friend. i suppose it's the high level of apathy i'm feeling toward most things in general, so while i've been reading journals, i haven't really been commenting because i can't think of anything to say, and that applies doubly for writing here. so, enjoy the lull while it lasts, because god knows at some point i'm going to clog your friend's pages full of shit and you'll rue the day you ever decided to add me to your friend's list!1unrelated: i'm wearing the housecoat that my mom wore when i was a baby. it's pretty silly looking.i have pink finger nails and huge blisters on my heels
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We all know that sometimes, it's just impossible to stay friends with an ex. Eric is the only "ex" that I'm on friendly terms with. So I hear how you feel.The Cure in two weeks. Maybe that will help the emo! :P <3
I start out nostalgic but end up ultimately sad and depressed if I go through my old stuff, so be careful.Hope things improve for you and that this week turns out better than last week :)(Sorry I can't think of something better to say, I'm a bit out of it atm)
Word. I'm nostalgic as of late as well. It makes me feel old and sad. That's my brilliant contribution to your entry.
it's not that, not really. i think we could be friends now, but he has this girlfriend and last i heard she's the one who's not ok with it.i don't really feel bad, i just sort of wish we could actually be friends
i'm not sad or depressed about it. breaking up with him was the right thing to do. definitely necessary for me to be who i am today. it just sucks that we don't have any relationship now, even though we both used to be such a huge part of each other's lives
awwwi feel old all the timeget used to it
That's the sucky thing- when they have new gf's that are insecure with them being friends with an ex. As if there's really any threat. You're just friends, it's not like you're going to steal him back. Especially considering the fact that you've had a boyfriend for the last 3 years. Sometimes people can be so stupid.
well, it took him like 2 or 3 years to get over me, and i'm not saying that to be full of myself or anything, that's what he told meanyway, she's been with him for awhile and she was friends with him when he was still trying to get over it, so i can understand why she wouldn't be just jealous, but also freaked out about what i might do to him and stuffi'd probably feel a bit of the same, and he has more of an obligation to her than me anyway
Wow, that long? Then I can sort of see her point. I still think you're not a threat, but I mean, if it makes her feel more comfortable, he's got to pick who's more important to him at this moment. It still sucks, though.
I know how you feel about not commenting, sometimes, I really just cannot think of what to say. It's pretty sad, actually.
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